hmmm

yeah, so some of you know that i'm pretty sure i'm going to break up with laura. some of you don't. it's kind of a recent realization. partly because i don't think that i would be able to honestly honor a girl from this far away, not right now anyway, and partly because there is just something not right with us - i think, anyway - i'm going to have to do it. it sucks mostly because i have to do it from 4000 miles away. i wish i had had these feelings/thoughts earlier, but an 14 hours of total travel really frees one up to do some thinking. that's pretty much the thing that's consumed my thoughts for the past several days. it's pretty obnoxious. i could use some prayer there. it would really be easiest to just let it go or do it in some pansy sorta way, but i know that she deserves more than that and that i wouldn't really be able to look at myself in the mirror if i did that, so i don't think i will. but nonetheless it's a struggle. sorry this is such a lame post, but that's pretty much all i've got goin on right now in my head. hopefully there will be more later. peace.