done

Well, it happened today. I made the call to Laura. I had to email her a few days ago to see when she would be around and what her phone number is (I don't have my phone, so I have no one's number) so I think the tone of the email and the fact that I didn't email her any other time other than just to tell her that I needed to talk to her probably tipped her off. I just couldn't think of anything to say. I didn't want to email her with a bunch of normal happy emails and then hit her with a break up phone call. That would be pretty cruel. So by the time I finally had money for a phone card and called her, I thinks he had an idea that something was gonna happen. As such it was a short call. I think the biggest problem for me was that she just isn't a very passionate person, at least not that I could see. And certainly not about the things I'm passionate about. I care about a lot of things - whether or not they deserve passion is another question - but in any case I care about things quite a bit. The point is it is done and I feel better having finished all that. I feel really bad that I had to do it this way, but it is what it is. And now you know. Ok, I'm finished with this ramble now.